||[May. 31st, 2006|01:41 am]
tamara(queen of all that glitters)
|[||hooked on a feelin
|[||you'll hear me singin
|||||higher ground- RHCP||]|
and i am home. for the summer.
after a spectacular time in seattle. too much good times for words. the west coast is beautiful, I really enjoyed the feel of it as well as the gorgeous views. spending time with friends is also great, you can learn so much about people by vacationing with them. I mean, who would've thought that brynne has severe road rage? brynne and her family were great hosts, and it was great to get to know them. It was sad to leave brynne though, because I won't see her for over a year. I don't think the realization has set it yet. It will next year when she's not there. on a happier note, the trip was hilarious and adventurous and everything a vacation should be. if u want to hear more about tetanus shots, missing luggage, uno mas, and sweet times in canada, ask meeee.
so my internship is going to be pretty sweet, i start next week and i am really excited. I have to say that finally having a direction, a major, an idea of the sort of field i think i want to work in is pretty good. My stereotypically free-wheeling sagittarius nature needs some sort of boundary for me to thrive, I've discovered. I don't like a lot of specific rules, but in order to be the best person I can and do the best things I need some sort of boundaries. So it's really cool to have a major (Public Communication with a minor in Psych). The company does PR and advertising for dvds, cds, and movies.. mostly on the internet.. Which sounds basically perfect for me. 3 days a week back and forth to the city will be interesting though.. and I am still looking for some way to earn money very part time.. hopefully babysitting comes through.
Back to boundaries. So I probably often say that I don't like rules. But I think I need to have some rules, if not for the simple joy I get from breaking them. With people, I need people who know how to give me boundaries, give me rules.. challenge me, essentially. Let me know where the line is, and give me a good reason not to cross it. But I also appreciate the people who let me be myself, who don't challenge everything I do... It's all about the balance, I guess. Someone who knows when to challenge me, and when to let me be. There are some people in this world who do that, and to them I am grateful. For all of my friends, I am definitely grateful... because being my friend is not always easy. Being a friend, a real friend, to anyone... is not always easy. Most of the time, it should be easy.. but there should be times, preferably few and far between..where it gets a little difficult to do. But it's worth it in the end. After two years of college (ahhh half way done with school ahhh).. I've come to realize that it's true what they say about love. You know you love someone when you can look past the things they do that drive you insane and love them in spite of- even because of- their quirks, idiosyncrasies, inadequacies.. I am happy that there are friends who love me even though I sleep through planned lunches or trips to the mall, blast music really loudly at the wrong time of the day, forget to call, mock them with no mercy, heartily discourage doing any sort of studying or homework, and tell the same stories over and over...etc. I hope my better qualities make up for all of that. If not, well- sucks to be them : )
I really really have to clean my room. It's pretty scary looking. I have to throw away so much stuff, that's the truth. I haven't actually gone through and gotten rid of things seriously for years. I tried to explain to my sister that my room is so messy because I have accumulated 19 years of stuff. She saw right through my excuse, and didn't buy it for a second.
The birds are very loud in the wee hours of the morning. What the hell are the yapping about? "I'm in a tree, You should come over!" " But I'm in a different tree. You should come over here instead!" "I came to you last time. You are so lazy." "Whatever, fine. I'll come over to your tree. But not if Bob is over there" " HEY GUYS! it's me, Bob. " "Oh shit, Fuckin Bob's coming."..
Yeah, I really need that internship to start up so that I can expel energy. I feel as though the commute and job will be pretty physically tiring and hopefully intellectually tiring as well. Not too tiring, but enough so that for at least 3 days I don't sit around during the day somewhere between lethargic and stir-crazy. I like being home though. School gets to be a very intense time and being away from it makes me appreciate it even more. Plus, that whole parents still want to take care of you sometimes thing is pretty sweet. I am one lucky gal. I also like making dinner for my family, and stuff like that. Oh, and my friends still on the island are pretty fantastical.
In short, things are well. I am still wacky, hopefully a little wiser.. and looking forward to what should be a pretty sweet summer.